Our Dear Loved TJ

Dear Family and friends,

My sister Steph typically has been relaying the detail messages for me to post. She is with family in Oregon at this time. It is with a sadden heart my family gives you this final post. We waited patiently to hear how TJ was doing in the OR yesterday April 18th, 2011. They were preparing him to be moved of the ECMO machine. There was some trouble with oxygen not flowing through the blood correctly making it hard for TJ to breathe on his own. Doctors came up with a plan to do a bypass again. With success they were able to get all his stats up off the ECMO machine, breathing on his own. They then prepared to close. Closing was a success, but just within an hour or so TJ's blood pressure dropped and they could not bring it back. TJ Passed away last night around 6 P.M. He fought hard, but the Lord must have other plans for him. He is within our hearts. He had a smile on his face as if he was at peace. His father Ty gave him a kiss on the forehead as they brought him out of the elevator, and held his hand to his room, where Ty wrapped TJ up in a blanket and held him. He also cradled him and walked around with him. TJ had impressions of his hand and feet, as well as free portraits. One of our dear friends Edie came to help with this impression. When I heard this, tears fell as so many people we know and love rallied around my family, ready to serve.

Sometimes we don't always understand or know the answers to life's questions. We ponder about loss, or ask why one would have to endure such hardships. It gives me comfort in knowing TJ is where he can no longer feel pain. He is with our family who've already moved on. I wouldn’t surprise if my Grandpa Payne has already called him a "Knott Head". Surely both my grandmothers were there with open arms. We do get wrapped up in life and sometimes forget it is the small moments that matter the most. Give a hug, a smile, do some kind of service, surround yourselves with loved ones.

Today I found peace and comfort. I picked myself up I addressed my children with any questions they had. We read as a family from the bible. We prayed together and my husband and I sent our two oldest kids off with love. I took my youngest to a friend’s house, so I could stay with my son at preschool today. I was surrounded by sweet loving children, and embraced by three amazing women. Though I can't be with my family today in Oregon, to help comfort one another, I was able to feel the strength from those willing to serve my family and feel comforted by little friends. I watched these children today and I pictured our Savior surrounded by little children. Oh how He loves little children.

TJ is forever in our hearts till we meet him again. To many family and friends, we are grateful beyond words for you dedicated prayers and support. My family appreciates you. Thank you with much love, from TJ's family